This week proved to be one of commitment, as I had to keep myself on track by keeping my commitment to this healthier lifestyle at the forefront of my mind. The scale keeps moving downwards people! Another 1.2 bites the dust!
Things that went right this week include choosing lots of healthy snacks. Fruits and Veggies are my BFFs lately, and if that chocolate villain calls my name I can hold him at bay with some chocolate milk, and not feel horrible about it.
Other than that this week is holding at a standstill, even if it has been filled with some pretty good choices.
Admittedly, my attention has been focused on school, homework, and that whole TTC thing. (posts coming soon)
So, that’s all I got this week folks. Sorry it’s not more entertaining! Hopefully, once the brain clears a bit, we will be back to posting some more lively things for your enjoyment! 🙂
Am I awake at 4:30 AM on a school day? Seriously? I mean, come on, a girl needs her sleep!
But, I guess needing to empty your bladder at 3:30, then constantly thinking about your alarm going off, and if you will sleep through it, and if it will wake up your sleeping-not-feeling-so-hot husband will keep you up at night.
So, before crawling out of bed, I threw my thermometer in my mouth, waited and got up.
Oh, yes, I have entered the ranks of those who chart their BBT to track their ovulation cycle. I realize that I should take my temp at this time every day, and I think I actually might, because a) I have been getting up about this time to empty the bladder anyway almost every night, 2) on “most” days, I can just roll over and go back to sleep d) if I do it early enough I can go back to sleep knowing that I have a long while until that alarm goes off, and therefore not fall into the trap of “I might as well stay up, so I don’t over sleep” thinking.
I’d post it, but one day won’t give you much to look at.
So I guess this means we have moved from the ranks of “not preventing” to actively trying…
Oh. My. Goodness.
It is amazing to me how as soon as you get married, how quickly people start asking THE question. You know the one- is there a bun in your oven? Are you trying? Do you want little ones? Anytime you feel ANYTHING everyone asks THE question. It can be a bit overwhelming/annoying/frustrating when it comes at you all the time. Rather than answering politely, I really just want to scream “IT’S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!!!” And I am thinking, Yes, we are trying, No we are not pregnant, Yes, I wish I was.
In addition to fighting the incessant interrogation, you have to fight your own brain and body through the process of TTC. Trying to monitor every signal your body is giving you in relation to the timing of the act to make a little one is stressful and overwhelming… and what if you are wrong? Then, the two-week-wait, in which every headache, stomach twinge, case of heart burn makes you wonder, and all you are thinking is no-it-can’t-mean-anything-it-is-too-early-to-poas. The whole two weeks crawl by with you wondering if you are imagining these “symptoms” or if they are the real deal. It is a crazy mind game! Then, you start the whole POAS ritual, you pee, you wait, and try to see something, nervous the whole time.
You sit and wonder- is you mind playing a game or is this what you think it is. And if it isn’t, you start again next month, with a head and heart full of doubt-hope-anticipation.
We are still new to the whole TTC arena, but boy is it stressful! Riding the roller coaster of emotions up and down as we wait to see if we will be graced with a little one of our own.
Filed under mind games, TTC